This is for you Chris, I miss you still. A year ago today, I never thought I'd be saying goodbye.

A year ago today I lost my best friend and long time roommate Chris.

A year ago today I got a call that he had been in a bad accident.

A year ago today I rushed to the hospital, only to arrive too late to see him alive one last time.

I got to say my goodbye, and for that I am grateful. But I lost my Chris. Tears are leaking out of my eyes as I write this and my heart aches fiercely. I miss him so much I can hardly stand it. I still expect him to call or stop by. I still expect emails and to hear his voice. It is so hard for me to accept and believe he is forever gone from my life. Chris was a Firefighter/EMT and was an ER Tech at CCH. He loved being a firefighter, loved village days for the kids, he loved his family. He loved to dive and sail, he loved Cherry Cokes, he loved his Maddie cat. Chris loved history and going on long drives and trips to see places where history was made. If he ever stopped at an ocean beach, no matter where, he brought me back beach glass and pretty rocks. He was thoughtful and remembered things that mattered to other people. That mattered to me. They say only the good die young. A very trite and over used platitude. Yet it's also truth. Christopher, I hope you can know how much I miss you. We all miss you. Why someone so gentle and loyal and funny, that one person you know who is truly good, gets taken away is beyond me. Right now I am just raging at fate. Trying to swallow my grief and write something meaningful about Chris. I can't express myself the way I want to. This will have to be enough. I just miss and love you Chris. You were one of the most important people in my life.